why oooh why?

rectently i just wanna spend money. no matter it's worth buying or not..
a little bit worring about myself, this condition never happens to me. so i told my mom

"why i like to use credit card, even myself don't know how to explain this situation"

"ok, give me ur card then u will not regret for using it without considering"

" yep, maybe it's a good idea"

..................................

this is already 4 or 5 years from i left my ex..

now there's strange feeling in my heart

helpless