Why/

why? why?

bad things seem never having the end.

now i have to work two jobs

even though one is my main job

the other is helping my mother to share her responsibility and pressure

however that has made me hardly breathe at will.

tonight mother told me she feels ill

thus i register family-department for her

right now i do worry about her health.

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recently i ask myself about this question,'what can i do if my parents need me to take care of them?"

i have full time job and i am a teacher.

i have duty to help my students to finish their coreses.

and if i don't work then what i can live with

those questions hit me one by one

Tzuchi lets me think deeply

life is short.

when u want to hold tightly, it passes too fast to realize what it is meant for u.

as me, i will cut down some courses to withdraw from my life.

keeps 1-2 classes to earn money.

even if i have to quit my job, i will do it.

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upset